One minute writting

I dont know what i want for us right now. I know I want you to be beside me because you are an important part of my life. But Im not so sure that i want you to be such anymore. You hurt me. Beside any mistakes that I could've made and all the problems we had, I miss you. I know that much. But I cannot continue to pretend that I can start again from nothing, because I can't. The past is there, the wounds are there and they haven't healed enough yet. Im sure someday they will, but until then... I can only ask you to be patient... or to leave me alone.